Okay, that's a little dramatic. But still. I'm usually good in school at all the subjects that I consider to matter in life: English, History, Science. For the most part, there isn't much comprehension. It's just memorize, regurgitate. But now I've been put in a math class and I keep failing everything, and since I have to do a lot at home, I fail at home, and then I don't even have a teacher to help me and tell me what I did wrong. It makes me feel so freaking stupid. :/

I feel terrible. Thursday I'll be cutting off three of my friends. I'm tired of having to do this, tired of having to let friends go. But I know keeping them is more detrimental to me than cutting them off.

I don't suppose I could bother anyone for a hug or something?

I have a cold. T_T At least I think it's a cold. Merlon (older brother) and Daddy got one, too, but Daddy has the flu, so I hope it's not that. >< That would suck. Don't want to be siiick. *blows nose and sucks on throat losanges* And Mommy's in Odessa, and she's supposed to be home sometime today, but since she's not, Nana is here and she cooked for me and Daddy. Twas good, too. Didn't feel like eating, but noodles always make me feel better. Along with coffee. *sips coffee with added hot chocolate mix* M-m-m. So, with my sick time, I'm lying in bed and watching Host Club. :D I've decided I reeeeally wanna be Hikaru sometime, so now I just have to capture someone to be Kaoru with me. >) Play the 'Which one is Hikaru' game.

Anyway, wish me luck at my doctor's appointment and pray that I don't have the flu! *sends e-hugs to all, since real hugs might get you sick*

-.-;; Augh. This annoys the crap out of me. I knew I had this coming, and so I'm not too pissed, but it's still aggravating.

Just normally, for some reason, I don't eat much. I wake up late, drink coffee until one, and THEN have something. And I went to my belly dancing class on Wednesday (as per usual) with a spaghetti-strap shirt (for obvious reasons) and my mom was all weird because I have ribs showing in my chest.

Mom: When I see people with ribs showing in their chests, I feel scared for them.
Me: -.-;;

I'm usually not like this, but big freakin' whoop! I jiggle everywhere else, so I hardly think that the one place where I don't have fat on me is a big deal. I'm 5'3.5'', and I weigh 121 (on average). I have my dad's bone structure, which equals wider shoulders. They're goin all freaky now because I, for ONCE IN MY LIFE, look thin. T_T I've done research and such, and while I'm not a doctor, I am nowhere near being anorexic. I could weigh ninety-eight (not that I WANT to) and still not be considered underweight for my BMI.

I just think my parents are making a big deal over my weight.

( Click here for an angsty teenage rant that is completely irrational! )

I'm SOOOO BORED! I'm in the middle of broke-ass-town, Odessa with nothing to do! I can't hook my laptop up to the internet because Merlon's asleep in the room with the hub. I have no one to talk to or interact with. It's snowing, but that's about it. It's 28 degrees outside. D: AND I DON'T HAVE MY LICENSE TO DRIVE! ;~; SOMEONE PROVIDE ME WITH SOME ENTERTAINMENT!

Oi, I just wanted to post some random thoughts here so I don't have to think about them.

FIRSTLY!: HPDFW kicks ASS. If you're in the D/FW area, join it.. Like, NOW.

Okay, secondly, I'm going to Australia for three months, then moving into a bigger house when I get back. Selling the old house might take a while, but once it's done and we have a bigger house, I can have HPDFW parties there and stuff. YAY FOR STUFF!

I hope I can find a chinchilla sitter before December. ;~; Otherwise I'll have to sell Kinky. WAAAAH!

Coffee rocks.

Wo Bist Du.

...I think that's it.